Julia sent another owl to Rhyden. I don't think I could have stopped her, and I didn't dare try.
I'm hoping she's right and that he still loves her.
I'm scared that I'm right and that her owl will make him too angry.
If I was a good sister, I probably wouldn't have told my parents. But I'm scared a bit. I just told my dad. My mum would be a mess. He thinks everything will be okay eventually. Rhyden will ignore the owl and eventually my sister will get over him. Maybe he's right. I don't know. I wish I could fast forward this part of my life and get to the place where we're happy again.
Do any of you have a spell for that?
I'm joking...sort of.
28 December 1997
26 December 1997
Nightmares
I'm feeling horrible and hopeless.
I had a really bad nightmare last night.
Julia ran away, but this time I didn't find her. My mum stopped talking completely and my dad talked but he acted like he had no life left inside of him. I told them we have to keep searching, but they said it was no use. Julia's gone forever. I tried to get out of the cabin to search for her, but every time I opened the door to go outside, I was back inside again. I kept trying and trying.
Then later a wizard came and he was going to erase our memories. I said we'd never want to lose our memories. I yelled at him to go away. But then my mum said they invited him, and they want to forget Julia because they'll never be able to find her. I screamed that it was a lie and begged them not to do it. The wizard waved his wand and said something to my parents. They then all stared at me and laughed.
I hate that dream. It's the worst dream I've ever had.
Well...I hope you guys had a nice Christmas. Please tell me how it went for you.
I had a really bad nightmare last night.
Julia ran away, but this time I didn't find her. My mum stopped talking completely and my dad talked but he acted like he had no life left inside of him. I told them we have to keep searching, but they said it was no use. Julia's gone forever. I tried to get out of the cabin to search for her, but every time I opened the door to go outside, I was back inside again. I kept trying and trying.
Then later a wizard came and he was going to erase our memories. I said we'd never want to lose our memories. I yelled at him to go away. But then my mum said they invited him, and they want to forget Julia because they'll never be able to find her. I screamed that it was a lie and begged them not to do it. The wizard waved his wand and said something to my parents. They then all stared at me and laughed.
I hate that dream. It's the worst dream I've ever had.
Well...I hope you guys had a nice Christmas. Please tell me how it went for you.
24 December 1997
Darkness and Sadness
Julia is very depressed, and I don't know what to do. I'm scared. And seeing her so sad makes me feel so sad.
She cries. She doesn't eat...and she's already way too skinny.
She barely talks.
She doesn't watch her favourite soap opera anymore. It's almost like she's died.
That's the worst thing, and I worry she'll never be happy again.
The other thing (which is not as bad) is she's making things happen...maybe. Our electricity keeps going off. The computers are acting funny. It could be the weather, but I doubt it. Our Christmas ornaments shattered. The stuffing in our pillows vanished. Yesterday, our microwave caught on fire. The owners of the Holiday Park weren't too happy when we told them it needs to be replaced...even though we told them we'd pay for it. I think they think we're troublemakers.
I hope all of you have a Happy Christmas. Thank you for your friendship.
She cries. She doesn't eat...and she's already way too skinny.
She barely talks.
She doesn't watch her favourite soap opera anymore. It's almost like she's died.
That's the worst thing, and I worry she'll never be happy again.
The other thing (which is not as bad) is she's making things happen...maybe. Our electricity keeps going off. The computers are acting funny. It could be the weather, but I doubt it. Our Christmas ornaments shattered. The stuffing in our pillows vanished. Yesterday, our microwave caught on fire. The owners of the Holiday Park weren't too happy when we told them it needs to be replaced...even though we told them we'd pay for it. I think they think we're troublemakers.
I hope all of you have a Happy Christmas. Thank you for your friendship.
21 December 1997
The Best Christmas Gift Ever!
Julia is alive!!!! She's fine. And she saved my life. I am so proud because she used magic!
I was in the forest looking for her and.....
A drop bear jumped down from the trees and landed on my head. It was so scary. I really thought that was the end of me, because drop bears are known to eat humans. Then Julia suddenly appeared, pulled out her wand, and said Immobulus. The drop bear froze, and I was able to get myself free.
I am so happy and relieved.
We're all alive and fine. Well, Julia's not so fine actually. She's really depressed. I don't know why. She isn't even proud that she saved my life. She said it was just a fluke. She can say what she wants. I'm still proud of her, and I'm still happy that we're all alive.
I was in the forest looking for her and.....
A drop bear jumped down from the trees and landed on my head. It was so scary. I really thought that was the end of me, because drop bears are known to eat humans. Then Julia suddenly appeared, pulled out her wand, and said Immobulus. The drop bear froze, and I was able to get myself free.
I am so happy and relieved.
We're all alive and fine. Well, Julia's not so fine actually. She's really depressed. I don't know why. She isn't even proud that she saved my life. She said it was just a fluke. She can say what she wants. I'm still proud of her, and I'm still happy that we're all alive.
Julia
I think I'm going to look for Julia. I have an idea where she might be. My parents are asleep and I can sneak out. I'm worried for myself and that makes me feel so selfish. Oh well.
My dad is going to wake up early and start searching again. He says there's no use searching at night because it's too dark. But during the day it's way too hot. It was 35 degrees today! Tomorrow it's supposed to be even worse. I don't want my dad to have a heart attack from the heat.
I have a backpack with snacks and water. I'm wearing pants and socks because of snakes and spiders. That's going to make me even more hot though.
I'll probably be okay. I think.
Thank you so much for all your kindness.
My dad is going to wake up early and start searching again. He says there's no use searching at night because it's too dark. But during the day it's way too hot. It was 35 degrees today! Tomorrow it's supposed to be even worse. I don't want my dad to have a heart attack from the heat.
I have a backpack with snacks and water. I'm wearing pants and socks because of snakes and spiders. That's going to make me even more hot though.
I'll probably be okay. I think.
Thank you so much for all your kindness.
20 December 1997
19 December 1997
The Sinking Ship
We saw a fantastic film tonight, and I think I'm in love.
It's called Titanic. I am guessing you guys have heard of the Muggle ship that sunk in 1912. The film was about that. It was so sad, but also so exciting and romantic. My whole family cried. Well, my dad and I just had a few tears. Julia and my mum were bawling. It was funny...but sweet. Julia doesn't usually cry when we watch films.
When we got home there was something waiting for us. An owl. Julia was so excited. She grabbed the letter it was carrying, and then let it go. Then she ran into her room and shut the door. I knocked a few times because I want to know who the letter is from. My dad said I should give her some space, and she'll tell me when she's ready.
My mum's not too happy about her getting an owl, of course. My dad said to her that it's not right for us to cut off her communication from friends. I think I agree with him. I understand the need to hide, but it's going to be too sad for Julia if we make her feel like a prisoner.
It's called Titanic. I am guessing you guys have heard of the Muggle ship that sunk in 1912. The film was about that. It was so sad, but also so exciting and romantic. My whole family cried. Well, my dad and I just had a few tears. Julia and my mum were bawling. It was funny...but sweet. Julia doesn't usually cry when we watch films.
When we got home there was something waiting for us. An owl. Julia was so excited. She grabbed the letter it was carrying, and then let it go. Then she ran into her room and shut the door. I knocked a few times because I want to know who the letter is from. My dad said I should give her some space, and she'll tell me when she's ready.
My mum's not too happy about her getting an owl, of course. My dad said to her that it's not right for us to cut off her communication from friends. I think I agree with him. I understand the need to hide, but it's going to be too sad for Julia if we make her feel like a prisoner.
09 December 1997
Update
Well, we're getting along better now. Sort of.
My dad felt really guilty about calling Julia stupid. He has apologised about fifty zillion times. She accepted his apology, but is kind of making him grovel. And when he tried to explain why we shouldn't call you-know-who "The Dark Lord"; or why life will be terrible for all of us if you-know-who wins, she refused to listen.
I apologised to my mum and she was nice. She said maybe she was a bit too harsh with me. She said she doesn't think Harry Potter is bad. She thinks he means well, but that he is probably not as spectacular as people imagine. I think she might be right, but I don't want her to be.
I'm confused about everything. Yeah, well....what else is new?
We're going to go get ice-cream, so I'll talk to you later.
My dad felt really guilty about calling Julia stupid. He has apologised about fifty zillion times. She accepted his apology, but is kind of making him grovel. And when he tried to explain why we shouldn't call you-know-who "The Dark Lord"; or why life will be terrible for all of us if you-know-who wins, she refused to listen.
I apologised to my mum and she was nice. She said maybe she was a bit too harsh with me. She said she doesn't think Harry Potter is bad. She thinks he means well, but that he is probably not as spectacular as people imagine. I think she might be right, but I don't want her to be.
I'm confused about everything. Yeah, well....what else is new?
We're going to go get ice-cream, so I'll talk to you later.
Harry Potter
Today at lunch we talked about Harry Potter. Maybe I should say we argued. OR maybe I should say we had a huge fight.
My dad thinks Harry Potter is the chosen one, that he's going to somehow save us all. He's a believer through and through. I want to be that too. I want to have faith. But I don't know. Is it realistic?
My mum thinks Harry Potter is just a kid and we're foolishly clinging to some type of silly mythology. She said Dumbledore was probably slightly delusional. That really angered my dad.
Then Julia says Harry Potter is an arrogant prat.
I don't think I've ever seen my dad get so mad before. It was kind of scary. My mum got mad at him for getting mad.
If Julia was smart, she might have shut up by then. Instead she said if Harry Potter fights "The Dark Lord" she hopes he'll lose so we can all go back to our normal lives.
My dad said, you're a bloody idiot. He slammed down his plate, got up, and went back into the cabin. He slammed the door shut.
Julia started crying and said she hated my dad because who calls their own daughter an idiot? I agree. He shouldn't have said that. But he was so angry. And please don't think badly of my dad. He's usually not like that at all. He's very gentle, and very nice. It's just Julia is so frustrating. What is she thinking? If Harry Potter dies, and you-know-who takes over....how is our life going to be normal? I don't understand her.
Everyone is mad at everyone and no one is speaking. I wanted to get away and go walk on the beach, but my mum said I can't. It's too dangerous for me to go alone. I said "Oh. What? Is Harry Potter going to jump out of the bushes and kill me?" She was NOT happy, and sent me to my room for being cheeky. I'm usually not like that with my mum. That's Julia's job, but I don't know. Something came over me.
Now I'm stuck in my room.
My dad thinks Harry Potter is the chosen one, that he's going to somehow save us all. He's a believer through and through. I want to be that too. I want to have faith. But I don't know. Is it realistic?
My mum thinks Harry Potter is just a kid and we're foolishly clinging to some type of silly mythology. She said Dumbledore was probably slightly delusional. That really angered my dad.
Then Julia says Harry Potter is an arrogant prat.
I don't think I've ever seen my dad get so mad before. It was kind of scary. My mum got mad at him for getting mad.
If Julia was smart, she might have shut up by then. Instead she said if Harry Potter fights "The Dark Lord" she hopes he'll lose so we can all go back to our normal lives.
My dad said, you're a bloody idiot. He slammed down his plate, got up, and went back into the cabin. He slammed the door shut.
Julia started crying and said she hated my dad because who calls their own daughter an idiot? I agree. He shouldn't have said that. But he was so angry. And please don't think badly of my dad. He's usually not like that at all. He's very gentle, and very nice. It's just Julia is so frustrating. What is she thinking? If Harry Potter dies, and you-know-who takes over....how is our life going to be normal? I don't understand her.
Everyone is mad at everyone and no one is speaking. I wanted to get away and go walk on the beach, but my mum said I can't. It's too dangerous for me to go alone. I said "Oh. What? Is Harry Potter going to jump out of the bushes and kill me?" She was NOT happy, and sent me to my room for being cheeky. I'm usually not like that with my mum. That's Julia's job, but I don't know. Something came over me.
Now I'm stuck in my room.
03 December 1997
In the Sand
Hello!
This day seemed so long, but it was pretty nice. My mum took Julie out shopping, and they went to dinner. That's kind of good because they have been fighting so much lately. I think this was my mum's way of trying to make peace between them. I'm not sure if it worked really. Well, they didn't come out yelling at each other, so that's good. But it's not like they came home acting like best friends. My mum went into the kitchen and read a magazine. Julia locked herself in her room.
While they were away, my dad and I went out to the beach to watch the sunset. You're going to laugh, but guess what we did together. We built a sandcastle! It made me feel like I was six-years-old. I had fun though.
I wanted to wade in the water a bit, but there were jellyfish on the beach. My mum says if they're on the beach, they're also in the water. I put my hands in a bit just to fill the buckets with water. That's about it. I wouldn't want to get stung.
Back to the sandcastle....
When we were building it, there was this moment where I felt really really happy. I almost liked the idea of moving here. But then I felt sad and the happiness faded away. I guess what bothers me is that...well, we've kind of been kicked out of London. That's different from leaving out of your own free will. I mean I know no one forced us to go. We left by choice. But we left because my parents felt that if we didn't we'd be in danger.
This is very stupid, but sometimes I feel the whole country rejected us and spit us out. I know that's not true. I know there's just a few very evil prejudice people, but....
Oh never mind. I can't explain it.
Anyway, besides my silly thoughts the day was nice.
I hope all of you are okay. I hope you're eating well and staying out of danger. I know you're in the middle of a war, but I hope you have some happy moments anyway.
Good night.
This day seemed so long, but it was pretty nice. My mum took Julie out shopping, and they went to dinner. That's kind of good because they have been fighting so much lately. I think this was my mum's way of trying to make peace between them. I'm not sure if it worked really. Well, they didn't come out yelling at each other, so that's good. But it's not like they came home acting like best friends. My mum went into the kitchen and read a magazine. Julia locked herself in her room.
While they were away, my dad and I went out to the beach to watch the sunset. You're going to laugh, but guess what we did together. We built a sandcastle! It made me feel like I was six-years-old. I had fun though.
I wanted to wade in the water a bit, but there were jellyfish on the beach. My mum says if they're on the beach, they're also in the water. I put my hands in a bit just to fill the buckets with water. That's about it. I wouldn't want to get stung.
Back to the sandcastle....
When we were building it, there was this moment where I felt really really happy. I almost liked the idea of moving here. But then I felt sad and the happiness faded away. I guess what bothers me is that...well, we've kind of been kicked out of London. That's different from leaving out of your own free will. I mean I know no one forced us to go. We left by choice. But we left because my parents felt that if we didn't we'd be in danger.
This is very stupid, but sometimes I feel the whole country rejected us and spit us out. I know that's not true. I know there's just a few very evil prejudice people, but....
Oh never mind. I can't explain it.
Anyway, besides my silly thoughts the day was nice.
I hope all of you are okay. I hope you're eating well and staying out of danger. I know you're in the middle of a war, but I hope you have some happy moments anyway.
Good night.
Muggle-Born Wizards and Their Odd Behaviour
I read the Ministry news today. It offended me slightly, but it also made me laugh. I love this bit. "Mudbloods do these things without any rhyme or reason. It’s just in their nature." Maybe that explains why Julia came up and turned off my game when I told her not to. I was in the middle of playing Mario 64!
01 December 1997
Miss Magical Bug
Hello!
I had another vivid dream.
So here it is:
I'm looking out the window and I see this bad wizard. He's about to enter a house, and I know he's going to hurt the people inside there. I decide I should stop him by using the infamous unforgivable A.K spell. But then I feel conflicted. I don't want to be a murderer. That's not the type of person I am. I consider using another spell, but I realize I don't know any. I decide I'll have to use the A.K spell. I wave my wand (or something) and shout out Avada Kedavra. It doesn't work. I then remember what I I've heard....that you have to really mean it for the spell to work. I try again. Then I finally remember that I'm not a witch.
I thought that dream was kind of funny. It makes me wonder though....if I was a witch, could I ever use the A.K spell? I really don't know. Maybe in self-defence? I think I would use it to save my family, probably. Or maybe I'd be too scared.
I hope all of you are doing okay. I'm tempted to ask if you guys have used any of the unforgivable spells, but that question's probably way too personal.
I had another vivid dream.
So here it is:
I'm looking out the window and I see this bad wizard. He's about to enter a house, and I know he's going to hurt the people inside there. I decide I should stop him by using the infamous unforgivable A.K spell. But then I feel conflicted. I don't want to be a murderer. That's not the type of person I am. I consider using another spell, but I realize I don't know any. I decide I'll have to use the A.K spell. I wave my wand (or something) and shout out Avada Kedavra. It doesn't work. I then remember what I I've heard....that you have to really mean it for the spell to work. I try again. Then I finally remember that I'm not a witch.
I thought that dream was kind of funny. It makes me wonder though....if I was a witch, could I ever use the A.K spell? I really don't know. Maybe in self-defence? I think I would use it to save my family, probably. Or maybe I'd be too scared.
I hope all of you are doing okay. I'm tempted to ask if you guys have used any of the unforgivable spells, but that question's probably way too personal.