A Crazy Thing

I've been worried that Malcolm likes me more than a friend, because I really didn't like him more than a friend.   And I thought maybe there was something between me and Jason.

Now....guess what.

I sort of have a crush on Malcolm.   So, I want him to be interested in me.   But he's not.

Or at least I don't think he is.   I think he just likes me as a friend.   That's all. 

Why would he be interested in me?   I'm a Muggle.   Sure, Malcolm isn't against Muggles.   He's not hateful like some people.   But that doesn't mean he wants one as his girlfriend.

Well, actually he probably wouldn't mind a Muggle as his girlfriend.   But I don't think he'd want me.

I'm not beautiful.  

Julia is the pretty one.  He probably likes her. 

I don't know why I ever imagined he might have feelings for me.

I guess I was delusional.  

Oh and Jason's definitely not interested in me either.   He emailed me and started talking about his girlfriend.   It's not like I mind.   It's fine because I'm not in love with him or anything.

I guess I just feel a bit rejected.  

In other news.....

My parents are fighting.   About what?   I don't know.   I'm trying not to pay attention.