Please let me know if you're okay.
I'm worried about all of you.
Julia says SC Mather is dead and I need to face that. My mum agrees with her. My dad says it doesn't hurt to have hope. He says maybe she's just hiding.
Jason was here for his Autumn holiday. It was really nice. I stopped worrying so much about my big secret and just enjoyed being with him.
He's left this morning to go back to Sydney. I'm going to miss him.
19 April 1998
08 April 1998
Worried
Have any of you heard from SC Mather?
I'm very worried about her.
I hope she's okay.
I'm trying not to think bad things. Luna ended up being okay, right? When I remember that, it makes me feel better.
I am hoping all of you stay safe too.
I'm very worried about her.
I hope she's okay.
I'm trying not to think bad things. Luna ended up being okay, right? When I remember that, it makes me feel better.
I am hoping all of you stay safe too.
03 April 1998
Sorry
I'm VERY sorry for my bad mood yesterday.
I really appreciate all of your friendships. I hope no one is too mad at me.
I really appreciate all of your friendships. I hope no one is too mad at me.
02 April 1998
Jason and Malcolm
Hello!
I'm sorry I haven't written in awhile. We went back to Sydney last weekend. Jason was there this time. Last time we were there he had been in Perth so I didn't have to worry about visiting him.
It's not that I don't want to visit him. I like him. But I felt it would be weird visiting him in Sydney without being able to tell him why we were there.
And you know what....it was weird. Actually, it was weird and stressful. On top of my big secret, I had to lie because I didn't tell Jason I had been in Sydney before. That was really stupid of me. Well, I didn't really lie exactly. It's more like I kept quiet when he showed me places. I acted as if it were the first time I ever saw it. Finally, I couldn't take it anymore and blurted out that I had been to Sydney in February.
Of course Jason was totally confused about why I'd not say something in the first place. I told him it was because I felt bad that we came when he was in Perth. That made me look really daft.
Then Jason wanted to spend all this time with me, and I also wanted to spend time with Malcolm and my other new wizard friends. But I couldn't take Jason with to that, and I felt like I kept ditching him.
I told Malcolm how I was feeling about Jason and he said "Oh, you don't need that Muggle as your friend.". I got really mad and we got into a huge fight. I ended up crying. He said he didn't mean it in an offensive way, and was just trying to make me feel better.
How could that make me feel better?
My dad says Malcolm is probably jealous of Jason.
He might be right. I emailed Malcolm yesterday and told him my Jason news. Jason is coming here for his Autumn holiday. Then Malcolm wrote me back and asked if I wanted to come and stay with them for a few weeks; the same weeks that Jason will be in Kiama. Malcolm said we could practice my magic together.
I am not magic!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Is he ever going to believe me about that?
I wish I was excited about Jason coming because he's one of the nicest people I know. He's so sweet. But I'm not excited, because every time I see him I feel guilty about the wall that's between us.
My mum says I should just go ahead and tell him the big secret. She says she's going to break the secrecy thing soon. She's writing down all this information and is going to send it to the Australian government. Why? Because she thinks you-know-who is going to win, and she thinks he won't stop with England. She says we need Muggles to band together with good wizards to fight against the evil wizards who plan to take over the world.
My dad has been begging her not to do this. He still thinks Harry Potter will save the day. He says if the secrecy thing is broken, Julia will be in danger. Will she be? I don't know. Some people might be scared and try to hurt her, but I think other people will help protect her.
My dad had an idea for me. He says if I want to tell Jason everything, why don't I just change the names of everyone and turn it into a fictional story. That way I can be honest with him, and.....
It's not really honest though. Is it?
I guess it's half-honest.
I don't think I'm that good at writing stories though.
I'm sorry I haven't written in awhile. We went back to Sydney last weekend. Jason was there this time. Last time we were there he had been in Perth so I didn't have to worry about visiting him.
It's not that I don't want to visit him. I like him. But I felt it would be weird visiting him in Sydney without being able to tell him why we were there.
And you know what....it was weird. Actually, it was weird and stressful. On top of my big secret, I had to lie because I didn't tell Jason I had been in Sydney before. That was really stupid of me. Well, I didn't really lie exactly. It's more like I kept quiet when he showed me places. I acted as if it were the first time I ever saw it. Finally, I couldn't take it anymore and blurted out that I had been to Sydney in February.
Of course Jason was totally confused about why I'd not say something in the first place. I told him it was because I felt bad that we came when he was in Perth. That made me look really daft.
Then Jason wanted to spend all this time with me, and I also wanted to spend time with Malcolm and my other new wizard friends. But I couldn't take Jason with to that, and I felt like I kept ditching him.
I told Malcolm how I was feeling about Jason and he said "Oh, you don't need that Muggle as your friend.". I got really mad and we got into a huge fight. I ended up crying. He said he didn't mean it in an offensive way, and was just trying to make me feel better.
How could that make me feel better?
My dad says Malcolm is probably jealous of Jason.
He might be right. I emailed Malcolm yesterday and told him my Jason news. Jason is coming here for his Autumn holiday. Then Malcolm wrote me back and asked if I wanted to come and stay with them for a few weeks; the same weeks that Jason will be in Kiama. Malcolm said we could practice my magic together.
I am not magic!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Is he ever going to believe me about that?
I wish I was excited about Jason coming because he's one of the nicest people I know. He's so sweet. But I'm not excited, because every time I see him I feel guilty about the wall that's between us.
My mum says I should just go ahead and tell him the big secret. She says she's going to break the secrecy thing soon. She's writing down all this information and is going to send it to the Australian government. Why? Because she thinks you-know-who is going to win, and she thinks he won't stop with England. She says we need Muggles to band together with good wizards to fight against the evil wizards who plan to take over the world.
My dad has been begging her not to do this. He still thinks Harry Potter will save the day. He says if the secrecy thing is broken, Julia will be in danger. Will she be? I don't know. Some people might be scared and try to hurt her, but I think other people will help protect her.
My dad had an idea for me. He says if I want to tell Jason everything, why don't I just change the names of everyone and turn it into a fictional story. That way I can be honest with him, and.....
It's not really honest though. Is it?
I guess it's half-honest.
I don't think I'm that good at writing stories though.